The next day I was in my room posting up pictures of Micky. I day dreamed as I processed. I thought, OMFG!!! I’m in love! I got tired of posting pictures up so I shut down my computer and went to my electric guitar. I listen to a song and it was from Avril Lavigne I noticed that it matched what I felt about how I was mad at him. It was called ‘He Wasn’t’. "He Wasn't"
There's not much going on today.
I'm really bored, it's getting late.
What happened to my Saturday?
Monday's coming, the day I hate.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.
This is when I start to bite my nails.
And clean my room when all else fails.
I think it's time for me to bail.
This point of view is getting stale.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.
Na na na na na, we've all got choices.
Na na na na, we've all got voices.
Na na na na na, stand up make some noise.
Na na na na, stand up make some noise.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
Like I was special, cuz I was special.
Na na na na na.
I rocked off in my room copying this song. As I did this I decided to record it. Later on that day, I positioned that song on my blog so when someone went on the blog they’d listen to the song. They commented me and said, “It was high-quality.” I commented back to thank them. My friends heard the song coming out of the room. They slowly opened the door and saw me singing the song. They walked in the room and asked, “Love the song.” I replied, “Oh, it’s not my song. It’s Avril Lavigne’s. I found it on the internet so I just heard it. I wanted to play the song on my guitar.” After, a little while I started playing again. Everyone told me that I was awesome and they wanted to actually play with me. So everyone went into position and began playing. Jane played the drums and I sang. Amy played the bass guitar and Amy played the electric guitar. Jinnie knew how to play piano, but she still knew how to play a guitar. We were awesome all together. We never hardly played together until today. Just because of this day I found out that we were great together and we should do this more often. As we finished playing the song I noticed that I was sweating a lot. I was running out of breath so I was breathing non-stop. Not like you don’t breath non-stop, but I was breathing loudly and deeply. I turned to see that everyone was breathless. I saw Jinnie move her fingers and say, “Geez, my fingers hurt like crazy. I had to move my fingers rapidly for that song. Oh, well…. It’ll get better. I cleaned up the mess we made and I left to go out and get some fresh air. I wore my jacket so that I wouldn’t catch a cold. I walked to the elevator where there was no one. The elevator door opened and I saw Hero. He waved, “Hey. Where are you going?” I replied, “Just going out for some fresh air.” He responded, “ Oh, okay. Have fun with that.” He went to his dorm and waved good bye. I waved back at him. As the elevator door closed I waited till it opened. I went out of the elevator and stepped outside. It was spring and the air was fresh. I took a deep breath and whispered, “What a beautiful day.” I walked slowly down the road as I looked at the trees on the sides of the side walk. I loved the grass there. It was so beautiful. When I was walking on the sidewalk, I saw Micky walking the same way I was. He was reading a book. His back was facing towards me and he was walking the same direction as I was. I sneaked to him, still rushing. I gently put my arms around his waist. I put my head on his back and he said, “Is that you, Jenny?” I replied, “Guess who?” He said, “I know it’s you, Jenny. I know, because you’d be the only one to hug me like that.” I replied, “Really? Are you just lying? I can’t believe you. Why wouldn’t any other girl hug you like that? Didn’t your mother hug you like that?” He added, “No, my mother never did that to me. My parents divorced a long time ago. I lived with my father that’s why.” I understood and said, “Oh…” We walked together and kept talking together about our parents. I told him how I wasn’t rich at all and my parents took a while to get money for my college. Micky gently fit his fingers into mine and we were holding hands. I noticed after a while. I asked him, “Do you like reading?” He nodded, “Of course. Reading is something interesting.” For some reason his voice seemed so distinct and I knew it. It felt like I had heard his voice for over a million years already. His voice was so soothing and comfortable, I wanted everything to stay this way. I wasn’t really listening to anything he said. All I did was examine his soft and even voice. I put my head on his shoulder to feel his breathe. I loved his warm breathe. I spoke once more, “Books help me understand more things……..” After a while we stopped by a bench and I lay my head on his knees watching him talk more about himself. His voice soon gradually decreased and I couldn’t hear his voice at all. When I didn’t hear his voice anymore, I knew that I was asleep. Far beyond reality and into my dreams. Deep inside my dreams I was standing on stage. My voice echoed through the walls as I sang upon the crowd. Everyone was cheering and I could hear people shouting for joy, but the one thing that bugged me the most….. Was that I was on stage alone. There was no one on stage other then me. All my friends and family were gone. I was living the life, just not with the people I loved. I felt so deserted and abandoned. I looked into the crowd to see familiar faces. They were my friends. Everyone glared down at me. They shouted and screeched into my ears, “JENNY!!!!” I tried to block the noise and cover my ears, but their voices were too deep inside my head. Everything blurred in my dreams and I only saw deformed faces in the crowd. Everyone began to laugh and snicker at me. I turned around to see that there was Micky. My mouth opened wide with shock. Micky spoke angrily, a voice I never heard, “Accept your destiny.” He pushed me into the crowd and I noticed it wasn’t a crowd. Now I was falling into a pitch black hole. I kept on falling till I woke up screaming. I noticed that no one was on the bench with me. I wondered, where did Micky go. As I tried to get up I saw a drink on the bench with a sticky note on the bottom of the beverage. It wrote, Jenny, I had to go do some errands for Ms. Kim. Sorry, I’m really sorry for leaving you here. I noticed that you fell asleep and I had to leave. I’m really sorry, Please accept my apologies, here’s a soda. - Micky I hurried and took the beverage from the seat. I felt the wet sticky saliva from my face and I was disgusted of the fact that I had drooled. I wiped my face with my sleeve and I rushed to stare at the time. It was already 6:00 PM. My mouth dropped open and my eyes spread out wide. I gazed up at the stars. It was already twilight and I loved this feeling of night. The wind blew softly through the air, making my hair swift through the air. Abruptly, I felt someone’s breathe on my neck. I slowly turned to see that it was Jane. She was sitting right next to me on the bench. “Hey, what are you doing here so late?” I replied, “Well, I just fell asleep on the bench and I noticed it was already twilight.” She stared up at the skies and gave out a huge sigh. “How come you never invited me here to watch the sunset?” I responded, “I never got the chance to.” She glowered at me for a while, still glaring at me with a little humor in her eyes, “Really?” I replied, “Of course.” Her expression changed and she looked cheerful as usual. We began heading to our apartment as we chatted about the silent and peaceful night. “Aren’t the stars great or what?” I nodded in reply, “Stars are the prettiest thing I’ve ever seen compared to where I lived. The stars were always there for me, unlike the friends I had back then.” I looked down at my shoes to avoid Jane’s eyes. I didn’t want to seem like I was depressed by this fact, although, this was actually no use. I peeked from the corner of my eyes to see Jane’s worried expression. She questioned, “Jenny, are you alright? Should I talk about something else? Is this depressing to you?” I lied, “No, it’s fine.” She smiled at me, halfheartedly. I gave a huge grin in reply. “So, why were your friends not there for you? Were they bad friends?” I explained, “Well, they were really bad friends. They avoided me and only used me for their homework. At birthday parties they’d always make me buy the presents. At my birthday parties I’d never get anything. All they gave me was their homework.” Jane looked so content that she had got the answer out of me. I gave out a laugh that wasn’t for the humor of it, it was just a laugh that came out when you felt stupidity at your door. She laughed with me, even though she didn’t know what she was laughing at or about. As we were about to go in the apartment, everyone came out of the apartment door. All of my friends looked at us surprised. “Hey, Jenny.” I waved back at them as if I hadn’t seen them for years. “Where are you guys going?” They replied, “Well, were going to a club. You know, we’ve been having to do so much work that we haven’t had much fun in years. The last time we had fun was in first month when we went to the sushi bar.” I nodded, “Can I join you guys?” They replied, “Sure.” I knew I wanted to go because I was excellent at dancing and it was no prob. I though to myself, If Micky’s going he’d want to dance with us, I guess. He only thought of me as a friend so it was no use feeling all depressed around him, besides this afternoon I was with him the whole time without any problems. I shrugged and went inside. I hurried and changed into a short skirt with a tank top. I put my hair down and it was very straight. I put on some eyeliner and some lip gloss. I put on my boots and headed for the front door. Jenny and everyone stared up at me. “Wow, Jenny, love the skirt.” I looked down and grinned, “Thanks.” *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ We finally arrived to the night club and everyone was allowed in. We were old enough. I stepped onto the dance floor with Jane and Jinnie, they seemed really excited and pumped up for the dance. I began to swift through the music. Everyone began to circle me with surprise. Everyone cheered me on as I danced. I turned to see that Micky was there. He was glaring at me there. I gave him a confused look, but he still kept his glare. He was now stomping towards me as I kept on dancing. He pushed through the crowd towards me. He finally arrived and he gripped onto my wrist so tight it started to burn. I asked, "What are you doing? OWW....LET GO OF MY WRIST!!!" He didn't let go of me, he just pulled me out of the dance floor and to the hallway of the entrance. I pulled my wrist away and yelled, "LET GO OF ME!!" He just turned to me and put his hands on my shoulders and said, "I don't want you to dress like this and dance at a club anymore... I just get this feeling that makes me feel angry. I can't let you dance where guys are staring at you. I just can't......" I almost felt what he felt. I closed my eyes. "Are you serious?" He nodded, "I think I like you, not even that, I think I love you." I turned to him and asked, "Are you sure?" He nodded, "Of course..." I slapped him real hard. His hands went on his face and asked, "What was that for?" My tears dropped from my face. "Why.....why did you leave me..... you lied to me... you said you were going to do some errands and you were actually here... hanging out with your friends." My cheeks were wet from all my tears and I was in Micky's arms crying. He gently pushed me off of his shoulders with his hands on my shoulders. He lifted his hands and put it on my cheeks. He wiped my tears away and whispered into my ears, "I'm sorry....I'll never lie to you again.." This made more tears fall from my eyes. After a little while we walked out of the dance club with my hands in his. I was content that today we decided to become boyfriend and girlfriend. After today, I told my friends that I was dating Micky and they were shocked. I was kind of shy after that day. | 
